It's all I think about.. and its only making things worse

by Melanie
(Ontario)

Hi, my name is Melanie. I live in a small town in northern Ontario.

For many years weight has been the main issue in my life. I can't control my eating habits, I'm extremly overweight right now at 230 pounds. I should be around 170.

I can't stop obsessing about my weight, it stops me from doing so much. I dont even want to go for a walk or anywhere in public for that matter just because I feel so uncomfortable with myself.

I need to lose weight, and I need to lose it before next year. My weight is ALL I EVER think about. It's driving me INSANE. I'm depressed, I feel horrible about myself, how I cant fit into any clothes or go out and have fun like all my friends.

I want to start biking, but again.. I dont like being in public because of the way I look.. I really dont know what to do anymore...