A little lady in a not so little body

by Little Lady

Hi,
I am a mother of 2 beautiful boys, 5 yrs and 6 months.

I am married for almost 8 years to a wonderful man. I should be happy, but I'm not.

I am relatively short, 5'3", and I weigh a ridiculous 175 pounds! My weight has progressively increased since having my first child and after having my second I can't seem to get my eating under control nor find the motivation or energy to work out.

I dream about the body I know is under all of this and I want nothing more than to look great, not only for my husband and kids, but for myself.

We can't afford for me to join a gym right now but I do have an eliptical trainer and a stationery bike at home.

I also have pilate DVDs that I KNOW work wonders.

Does anyone have any advice on curbing my CRAZY appetite and finding the motivation to work out on a daily basis.

It would also be nice to know how some of you have found time with children to fit it in enough that it actually makes a difference.